a table that has spots filled with crumbs,
lap top open,
papers spread out everywhere.
School started a week ago, and I feel like I haven't been able to catch my breath,
trying to balance 17 credits and 35 hour work weeks.
Those last few moments at night between climbing into bed
and falling into an exhausting sleep,
is the time Adam and I spend together.
Catching up with each other, right before our talking becomes incoherent mumbling.
Being busy is when I function best.
Having a plan or task for every hour of the day keeps me organized.
I manage my time better and get more accomplished.
I have cooked more in this last week, than I have in a long time.
I live by my planer and check list.
The days begin to blur into each other, but hey, I am getting things done.
I feel productive because I am busy, always going somewhere
or studying something.
It is only now, in this moment,
in a room filled with hundreds of people,
where there is a constant buzz of noise due to talking and laughing,
have I felt more, than I have in two weeks.
There is a piano 10 feet away from where I am sitting.
A guy just sat down and began playing,
and suddenly everything seemed to disappear.
The song "Over the Rainbow" began to echo through the walls,
and I was overcome.
Overcome with gratefulness
grateful for his musical talent, for this building,
for music, for the opportunity to go to school,
grateful for family, for a body that functions well, for people,
the list continues.
He has been playing for ten minutes now,
one beautiful song after another,
I have put all my school work aside and just sat for a moment,
In one of his talks Elder Ballard talked about
"enjoying the fleeting moments, the quiet moments,"
and although he was talking about motherhood,
his words resonated with me today.
Only in those quiet moments, where we pause
can we see and feel the tender mercies of the Lord.
Sorry for the long absence, I am back now, and will be more consistent.
At least that is the goal!
A long post coming this weekend with pictures of a race I ran in two weeks ago.